Saturday, February 21, 2015

1am of the third day of cny

Ok. It's 1am in the morning and I'm being stupid. Again.

In my previous post I ranted/complained/whined about poly and up till now, I still don't know anyone who's going to Veterinary Bioscience. I would say I've done quite a good job trying to avoid thinking about it but now that I've started to think about it, the fear and hesitance starts coming back again.


I honestly don't know why I'm like this. I wish I was one of those people who are like, "OMG I'm so excited for poly! I can't wait to receive my enrolment package and sign up for camps!" Or be those people who PRAY to get into camps.

People like me just never understand. I hate camps. I hate socializing, really. I remember having a conversation with this friend, and we were talking about poly, about how if they played those games where you have to guess celebrities etc, I would fail badly at all the games. Like really badly.

Cause I could care less about fashion, gossip or celebrities lol.

So that left me thinking. Do I stay true to myself or learn to be like others?

I wish my answer was the latter. But deep down inside me I know I'm not that kind of person. Of course I would choose to stay true to myself.

Pssh, no. That's a lie. I'm just stubborn. That's it. That's the ultimate reason! I'm stubborn, selfish and sometimes stupid.

I wish, really really wish, that I would meet mature and good friends in poly. I. Want. Sincere. Friendships.