Saturday, February 21, 2015

1am of the third day of cny

Ok. It's 1am in the morning and I'm being stupid. Again.

In my previous post I ranted/complained/whined about poly and up till now, I still don't know anyone who's going to Veterinary Bioscience. I would say I've done quite a good job trying to avoid thinking about it but now that I've started to think about it, the fear and hesitance starts coming back again.


I honestly don't know why I'm like this. I wish I was one of those people who are like, "OMG I'm so excited for poly! I can't wait to receive my enrolment package and sign up for camps!" Or be those people who PRAY to get into camps.

People like me just never understand. I hate camps. I hate socializing, really. I remember having a conversation with this friend, and we were talking about poly, about how if they played those games where you have to guess celebrities etc, I would fail badly at all the games. Like really badly.

Cause I could care less about fashion, gossip or celebrities lol.

So that left me thinking. Do I stay true to myself or learn to be like others?

I wish my answer was the latter. But deep down inside me I know I'm not that kind of person. Of course I would choose to stay true to myself.

Pssh, no. That's a lie. I'm just stubborn. That's it. That's the ultimate reason! I'm stubborn, selfish and sometimes stupid.

I wish, really really wish, that I would meet mature and good friends in poly. I. Want. Sincere. Friendships.

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

O level results - Veterinary Bioscience?

O level results are out! Not the best result, but enough for me to get into the course that I want - Veterinary Bioscience.

I don't know if I'm the only one, but I'm getting so nervous just thinking about being in a new enviroment and and making new friends again. Not a lot of people understand it when I say it's difficult for me to make friends.

Why? Because I'm so awkward! I never know the right things to say or do! My english is not good, I can't express myself properly and all that.

Honestly, being in a new environment has to be the most stressful thing to me. Actually orientation camps probably are. Why? Because there's the ice breaker games and all that. I've never been a super active person, or a super enthu person.

Games are a dread to me. Being alone + having to play games = nightmare + nervous me + anti social me

At first, I thought my friend was going to Veterinary Bioscience at Ngee Ann too. But she's having second thoughts and now the butterflies in my stomach are making me puke from nervousness.

I'm praying that she'll change her mind. But at the same time I know I shouldn't influence her decision. It'll be a lot better if she makes her own decision. She'll be happy with it and that's what matters most because it's her life.

So poor me i guess. I've been looking around on Ngee Ann's website and their facebook page. It seems they don't have any groups or forums for people who are interested in Veterinary Bioscience to join and get to know their future classmates.

Sigh. I feel like PSLE all over again. But even then I wasn't that scared. At that point of time all I wanted was to be away from everyone, but I couldn't. Now, I want to be with everyone, but I can't.

Maybe some people think this is stupid, and that I'm worrying about stupid things. And maybe in a few years - or maybe months - times I would look back at this post and wonder, what's so scary about it?

But I can't help but to feel like this. :(

I can only pray that some miracle happens and someone I know (or I miraculously find someone online) is going to Ngee Ann and joining their Veterinary Bioscience course.

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Roti Prata with Yoghurt and Fruits

So today I decided to be a little more adventurous and do something weird.

I decided have roti prata with yoghurt and fruits!

I don't know how to make roti prata from scratch though, so I decided to just get the instant ones you find in NTUC.

I love red plums, and I ran out of green apple so I just stuck with one fruit :D

Chop it into pieces ~

I know, I know, there's no logic behind the way I cut things, I just keep chopping until all of them are bite-sized pieces.

Preparation done!! Now time to spread everything on my prata!

I think I put too much plums, but whatever :D I love plums anyways.

I LOVE IT!! I doesn't taste as plain as crepes do with yoghurt and fruits. The prata gives the dish a localised flavour, but it's not strong enough to cover the taste of the fruits :D

I'm so gonna do this more often.

Prata - 219 (per slice)
Yoghurt - less than 10 (I only used a tablespoon)
Plum - 30 per plum (I used 2, so it's 60)

Total: 219 + 10 + 60 = 289 kcal

That's quite ok for a meal I guess :D

A New Start

Hey all! (If anyone is still reading hahaha, my blog is so dead)

I've deleted my previous posts, (kept some) and decided that I want to start a new.

Over the years I've grown up and changed a lot. I've learnt to be more grateful for what I have, and to be less mean to others. I've learnt to be more patient and less childish.

I'm still pretty stubborn though hahahaha but whatever. :D It's 1:51am right now and I'm starving (i don't know why!).

Anyway, I'm still debating if I should leave my room and grab something to eat or just sleep it off.

Soooo.. I've exported my old posts to another blog of mine (which has all of my old posts). I will starting doing reviews on this blog and be a lot more hardworking, hehehe.

Thank you for supporting my after all these years.