My rose plant at home

I bought a pot of rose plant from a local garden sometime back.. After all the flowers died, there was no more flowers anymore, and there seemed to be no new ones growing :(

I was so scared my rose plant was gonna die. So one day, i thought, why not just trim my rose plant? Make it look nicer, and have a shape.. I mean, if it dies then so be it, there are no flowers anyway..

So I trimed it. And guess what?

It grew flowers!!! Like a few weeks later :D< Look:

The camera couldn't focus so i had to use my ugly and rough hands to help it focus.. It's still quite blur though :(

Ok, bye!

Blogging again

I say this all the time, but I'm really going to try this time.

I'm going to try to get back to blogging. I didn't blog for practically the entire year and I feel like I've lost a part of myself. My blog used to be where I expressed my thoughts and feelings without caring about what others think, so that I don't have to keep everything bottled up inside.

But after some time, I realized I was blogging for others and began to lose interest in blogging. Then everything went weird. I wasn't myself anymore. I became nicer and happier but honestly? I prefer being alone and emo sometimes. I really missed it when all I had to do was be myself.

A lot of things happened these two years. I became the Vice-Chairperson of my CCA (SmartsMedia Club) and that's when everything started to become different. I learnt to think before I speak, and be nicer and more sensitive to other people's feelings. At the same time I've also learnt that being a leader doesn't always mean that everyone will like you and admire you. There are people who will hate you for what you're doing and gossip about you, spread rumors about you behind your back.

Together with a bunch of friends, we were 'promoted' and became a leader in our CCA, class and other stuff etc. It's a really great experience and we had many opportunities to lead, and were constantly forced to step out of our comfort zone. And because of this, our priorities changed, and people changed.

Not that I regret being given the opportunity. I loved it. But sometimes I wonder what would happen if my friends and I were not leaders, would our friendship remain the same?

I am glad that I was not one of those people that became worser. In fact, I'm really proud that I'm a better person now. I'm being told that I'm more open and friendly to others. I also realized that I'm no longer scared to try new things and I can speak to an audience without stuttering. In fact, I can speak firmly and loudly. I'm super proud of myself for that.

Do I regret this? Nope. I love it.

I just miss being myself again. Which is why I'm going back to blogging, listening to classical music, reading books, and doing devotion.

Even though this year is an important year because I'm taking my O levels. But whatever. I need myself back, then I can excel.

Growing tomato plants!

About a few days ago, i went to my dad's office to grow some tomato plants. I brought some cherry tomatoes with me and some plastic bottles to plant them in.. A few days later






We also planted some cucumber plants using the seeds that we bought from a local garden.


TADA!!

I'm so excited for them to grow bigger! I've just moved them into a plastic bottle that my dad cut so it's like a tray..


I'm also growing some bell peppers..


(The one at the top with a white cap has bell pepper seeds, fresh from bell peppers. The one with a blue cap has honey tomatoes..)

I can't wait!!

People

Today, I realized something very important. Actually, no. I realized this a long time ago. I just never realized how important this was.

I'm someone very direct. When I dislike you, I won't help you. Yes, if you asked me a question, I will answer you. That's just me being polite. But if you asked me to help you, I won't - because I don't want to give you the wrong message that I'm okay with you when I'm not. To me, that's the difference between being POLITE and FAKE.

But what I don't understand about is those people who don't like you, but still act like they're your best friend. I can never understand. I know, some people are just really nice. They don't know how to let someone else know that they don't like them. Understood. For those people, I don't blame them for being more polite to the person they don't like.

What I don't understand about is those people who don't like you, and are supposedly too 'nice' to let you know that he/she doesn't like you, but still initiate a random conversation with you, or ask you if you would like to hang out, go home together, have recesses/lunch break together etc. And during the recess/lunch break/bus ride home etc, they will talk to you like they're your best friend.

I mean, if you don't like someone, and supposedly want to let the person know that you don't like them, but you're too 'nice' to say it, would you still initiate an opportunity to be around that person? Or would you try to avoid the person as much as possible?

I think you understand what I'm getting at.

Those people, aren't 'too nice', neither are they being polite.

They're FAKE.



And there's also those type of people who never admits that they're wrong. Or those who knows that they are wrong, but still try to make it seem as if they're right. Or those who apologize immediately for everything they do because they didn't mean it. Or worse, those who don't even think that they're wrong.

Here's a scenario:

Someone posted something about you online. They mentioned many untrue things about you on facebook for everyone to see. You also know that that person doesn't lock her account, so EVERYONE can see what she wrote. And that person, just happened to joke around with you yesterday. When you saw the post, you did not confront her, hoping that she would stop. But she didn't. Instead, she even mentioned your full name and identity (eg, their class monitress, cca chairman etc). So you told a mutual friend about it, not knowing what to do. That mutual friend spoke to the person abt the issue and asked her to apologize.

Here's what the three types of people would do.

Those who refuse to admit that they're wrong: They won't apologize. But will eventually give you an insincere apology only because they don't want you to report the incident to your teacher.

Those who knows that they're wrong, but try to make it seem as if they're not: They'll act like everything's fine. They won't apologize, and continue to talk to you like the incident never happened. And just when you think you can forget about it and forgive her, she tells the teacher that you did something to her, hence why she posted such nasty stuff about you.

Those who apologize immediately for everything they do because they didn't mean it: Simple. She apologizes again and again, you accept her apology, and tada! You're best friends again.

Those who don't even think that they're wrong: They won't apologize. Instead, they confront you, calling you nasty names to your face, and criticize you for many things. They keep insisting that you are wrong, and won't even care if the matter is brought up to someone with a higher authority. In fact, they want the matter to be brought up to someone with a higher authority, so that they can 'prove their innocence'.

See the difference? So who's the worst?

I say, the ones who are FAKE, and apologize immediately for everything because they 'don't mean it'. Why? Because they'll always be your friend. They'll always be there, backstabbing you, gossiping about you, telling everyone your not-so-secret-anymore secrets. But you'll never know, because you think they're your best friend.

But truth is, they're scarier than your mentally sick enemy who wants to kill you.