18th Birthday

Hey world!

This year's birthday is very different, because I turned 18! And I finally got to wear my purity ring.

So my dad said that he wanted to buy me a ring for my 18th birthday, just as a special gift since I'm 'grown up' and all that. And because I'm a Christian, I wanted to make it even more special - especially for myself. I wanted to make that promise to God.

I know some people think it's stupid and rash of me. But it really isn't. I did take time to think about it.

I have never actually been that excited for my birthday. Today has been quite happy. I woke up to a message from my sister: "One year older means one year closer to your death. Haha just joking. Haopy birthday sis!"

And of course since exams are coming and we have a report due on my birthday plus lots and lots of tests the next week, my friends were too busy trying to rush to complete their report to remember it's birthday.

I don't blame them though! I really don't, I promise. I understand. I mean, if I had a report due that day I would probably forget it too. Besides, my group of friends and I don't really make a huge deal out of our birthdays anyway.

Yesterday I made a post about my sad life. It was a little emotional. But you know what? Today, I'm going to be happy and grateful for all the things I have in life.

I'm grateful for my friends, especially the ones I met in poly.

I never expected to meet people like them. I never expected to make friends like them. I am grateful, I really am. I feel like I finally found that group of friends that are meant for me, who will accept me for who I am.

I can be really pessimistic right now and say I thought that too with my previous group of friends but hey - I promised myself that I will be happy today. Today is about me being thankful for everything I have in life.

I'm not even going to bother about other people.

They aren't important to me, at least not now anyway. And I'm older now - I've learnt to understand that my priorities are not other people's priorities. I get it.

So, since I got my purity ring - I guess this means I'm officially allowed to date. Not that I have anyone anyways :/

Tomorrow I have school as per normal, except that the course management wants to talk to my class privately?! It doesn't sound very good and I hope it turns out okay.

Goodnight!

Roller Coaster Ride

Why do I always have moments like this? Where I just feel like the entire world is against me and I have no one to talk to because they will judge me because they don't understand.

Poly life has been good so far. Quite a lot of drama - which everyone thinks is my fault - around me. Maybe it really is my fault and I should be a nicer person and be less opiniated and more tolerant. But would I still be myself if I do that? The biggest struggle - how do you remain true to yourself without being annoying when you are annoying?

Sometimes I feel like the world is better off without me.

Pessimistic, I know. But I feel like all I do is add lots of drama and unnecessary conflict - according to everyone - to people around me. How do I manage a balance between staying firm to your beliefs and morals without being a bitch? How do I stay opiniated without hurting others and causing conflicts? People always say I'm always trying to pick a fight. Maybe its true. Maybe I should just be more tolerant. Maybe I shouldn't be so opiniated.

Sometimes I wish I was mute.

At least that way I won't be able to express how I feel. Then people won't say I'm being noisy. Or loud. Or irritating. Or bitchy. Or whiny. I don't know. Sometimes all I want to do is rip my voice box apart. Maybe that will make people happy.

I have never been that kind of person that is good at anything. I know a lot of stuff, I've been exposed to a lot of different sets of skills. Sports, music, studying, arts etc. I'm average at everything. Never good. Never the best. Never the one that sticks out. Never the one where people go, "Omg she is so good!".

I know I'm not the only one experiencing this. Maybe I'm just being a whiny and ungrateful bitch. I don't know.

But sometimes, I just wish I have something that I'm good at consistently.

I mean, yeah, some people say I'm good at studies - I have gotten awards before, I've also topped the class for tests/exams before. Some people say I'm good at playing the piano. I used to think I'm good too, until I realize that I am never ALWAYS good.

I know no one is always good, I know.

But at least they are most of the time, right?

I've always been good at something just like, once for every 100 times I try. It makes me so happy, and then I fall, really, really hard. It's painful. Especially when your failure was public. It's humiliating. That moment when everyone is rooting for you, counting on you, and you fail. You fail so, so, badly.

I thought I got pass that in poly. Now I know I didn't. I never did and I never will. I try to tell myself the famous quote - those who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter.

But we all know thats just bullshit. It's the people who mind that matters the most. It's those that matters that minds so much.

Why?

I hate my life, honestly.

Sometimes I think, just keep your friends close and get everyone to fuck off. But you know, some friends can become your worst enemy overnight. Sometimes your enemies aren't really your enemy.

Life is just a sick game, isn't it?

Again, this is the part where I wish I'll just die.

Maybe I'm just being ungrateful as usual. I'm just whining, you know, the usual. Just ignore me, really.

It is my birthday tomorrow. My 18th birthday. I'll be getting my purity ring tmr - and I'm excited and scared at the same time.

Excited because well, it's a new beginning. I made a promise to myself. And I will do all I can to keep it. Scared because..well, you'll never know. It's a secret I'll never tell. A secret I'll keep till I die.

It's probably going to be the same thing again. Be happy, be excited, and thrilled that it's my birthday. Then go home, and cry before I sleep, as usual.

Because it's been a year - and I still haven't found myself. I still don't know my place in this world. I still don't know my purpose in life. I still don't know my identity. I still don't know myself.

I'm still lost.

1am of the third day of cny

Ok. It's 1am in the morning and I'm being stupid. Again.

In my previous post I ranted/complained/whined about poly and up till now, I still don't know anyone who's going to Veterinary Bioscience. I would say I've done quite a good job trying to avoid thinking about it but now that I've started to think about it, the fear and hesitance starts coming back again.

Whyyyyyy.

I honestly don't know why I'm like this. I wish I was one of those people who are like, "OMG I'm so excited for poly! I can't wait to receive my enrolment package and sign up for camps!" Or be those people who PRAY to get into camps.

People like me just never understand. I hate camps. I hate socializing, really. I remember having a conversation with this friend, and we were talking about poly, about how if they played those games where you have to guess celebrities etc, I would fail badly at all the games. Like really badly.

Cause I could care less about fashion, gossip or celebrities lol.

So that left me thinking. Do I stay true to myself or learn to be like others?

I wish my answer was the latter. But deep down inside me I know I'm not that kind of person. Of course I would choose to stay true to myself.

Pssh, no. That's a lie. I'm just stubborn. That's it. That's the ultimate reason! I'm stubborn, selfish and sometimes stupid.

I wish, really really wish, that I would meet mature and good friends in poly. I. Want. Sincere. Friendships.

O level results - Veterinary Bioscience?

-this post is now private on tumblr-

Roti Prata with Yoghurt and Fruits

So today I decided to be a little more adventurous and do something weird.

I decided have roti prata with yoghurt and fruits!

I don't know how to make roti prata from scratch though, so I decided to just get the instant ones you find in NTUC.

I love red plums, and I ran out of green apple so I just stuck with one fruit :D

Chop it into pieces ~

I know, I know, there's no logic behind the way I cut things, I just keep chopping until all of them are bite-sized pieces.

Preparation done!! Now time to spread everything on my prata!

I think I put too much plums, but whatever :D I love plums anyways.

Verdict:
I LOVE IT!! I doesn't taste as plain as crepes do with yoghurt and fruits. The prata gives the dish a localised flavour, but it's not strong enough to cover the taste of the fruits :D

I'm so gonna do this more often.

Calories:
Prata - 219 (per slice)
Yoghurt - less than 10 (I only used a tablespoon)
Plum - 30 per plum (I used 2, so it's 60)

Total: 219 + 10 + 60 = 289 kcal

That's quite ok for a meal I guess :D

A New Start

Hey all! (If anyone is still reading hahaha, my blog is so dead)

I've deleted my previous posts, (kept some) and decided that I want to start a new.

Over the years I've grown up and changed a lot. I've learnt to be more grateful for what I have, and to be less mean to others. I've learnt to be more patient and less childish.

I'm still pretty stubborn though hahahaha but whatever. :D It's 1:51am right now and I'm starving (i don't know why!).

Anyway, I'm still debating if I should leave my room and grab something to eat or just sleep it off.

Soooo.. I've exported my old posts to another blog of mine (which has all of my old posts). I will starting doing reviews on this blog and be a lot more hardworking, hehehe.

Thank you for supporting my after all these years.

Annoying Volunteer from some dog shelter

Ok, so I wanted to get dog. And I decided to adopt cause I thought it's the right thing to do since so many dogs are looking for a home and they don't have one.

So I contacted this person that posted an ad on gumtree about 10 weeks old rescue puppies and I just texted her and asked if they are still available. She called me back.

Can I just say that I don't really want to adopt anymore?

She asked me how old I was and I told her that I am 16 and my sister (who is the one who wants the dog) is 14. The moment she heard that, she said, "Are you sure you are ready for a dog. It's a lifetime commitment! And I want to make sure that the dogs go to good homes because I don't want them to be returned to me a few months later because you got bored of it. It's not fair for the dog. It costs a lot of money. Are you sure you are ready? I mean, being 14 and 16 I don't think you are prepared. A visit to the vet can cost a lot and the upkeep costs....blah blah blah"

So she just went on and on about how people are cruel for abusing dogs and how I'm not prepared to have a dog just because I'm 16

EXCUSE ME HAVE YOU EVEN MET ME!

Just because I'm 16 doesn't mean I'm immature and irresponsible! Yes I get that you meet a lot of irresponsible adopters who don't want the dog a few months later because they're bored of it and they are usually young but THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I'M LIKE THAT.

I have been taught very well by parents to be a responsible person thank you very much.

And because my parents also taught me that I should be polite and respectful of 'elders' (meaning people who in a way hold a higher position than you. In this case, it's adult Vs teenager) hence I did not say anything but listened to her ramble on and on. I shall not disclose who this lady is either because unlike people who judge, I'm not like that.

There's this chinese idiom: 一根竹竿打翻一船人 which is (when directly translated) to use a bamboo stick to 'hit' the all the people on the same boat. Eg. Thinking all teenagers are immature even though you only encountered like one immature teenager your entire life.

Sigh. This is my first time trying to adopt and I get this. Hopefully not all the volunteers are like that.

Almost over

It's 5th November and I have 3 more papers left!!! Physics Paper 1 on friday, Chemistry Paper 1 next tuesday and Biology Paper 1 next thursday!!!!!!


I'M SO HAPPY YESH.

Can't wait.

Also, my sister is getting a pomeranian. Well, our parents agreed and I'm so excited! We're still looking around for a affordable pomeranian though. We were thinking of adopting a dog from the the pet shelters but many are either too old or not hdb approved!

Sigh. *prays* please let a cute and affordable pomeranian that I can adopt appear!

Hello hello

I feel like O levels has been taking a toll on me. I can't believe time has passed by so fast! I'm taking my Os in 3 weeks omg!!

I honestly don't know what to think. Because of that I've been neglecting a lot of things in my online sites like my tumblr and blog..

Not that I'm 'inactive' on tumblr since I've queued so many posts. HAHAHA

Anyways, it's 10:50pm so I'm going to sleep cause it's monday tomorrow and I have school :( ok bye!

Been busy with tumblr

So recently I decided to get back into tumblr. I've started queueing lots of posts, and even create another tumblr just for sims stuff.

I wanted to consistently post stuff, but don't want to be spending so much time, so I figured tumblr is the next best thing cause I can always post some pictures every now and then, so I don't have to spend so much time as I do if I blog them all out since blogging does take up a lot of time.

So yeah, I'll be more active on my tumblr more than anything else, so if you want more frequent updates you can check out my tumblr. But, I'm not posting any personal stuff there. I still feel more comfortable blogging the whole story out since my tumblrs are just there for me to reblog/post pictures of nails & sims.

So yup :D

I feel like I've been really lazy these few days even though it's a school holiday, I really need to starting acting like I'm having my O levels soon.

Sims dedicated blog

I was looking through my archives for this blog and realized that I do not want my blog to be a Sims 3 blog. Nono, that would mean that I need to delete my old blog posts or export it to another blog like I've done to my previous blog posts (that are not on this blog anymore).

So I've decided that I'm going to have another blog that is dedicated to my creations or solutions that I've found for any glitches on Sims 3 (or Sims 4 maybe, if I get my hands on it!). This is the link to my sims 3 blog: http://kaixinzsims.blogspot.com

Anyway, I've posted my Taylor Swift inspired sim, but please be nice! It's my first try...

Taylor Swift Inspired Sim

Creating Taylor Swift on Sims

I'm so happy! I just created Taylor Swift on the Sims 3, although I don't think it looks like her, I still feel happy because it's a big step for me - considering that I've never ever created sims to look like anyone in real life.

Soooo.. I have no pictures because I recorded the entire process of me creating it on the Sims 3, and I kept pausing because I had to google for images of her and etc. I'm so excited!!!

Should I post it on the Sims 3 Exchange?

But other people there have such nice sims and such awesome skills. I can't compare :(

Make sims or build houses.

Or create worlds?

Or learn to code?

I love coding, I do. But I'm just too lazy hahahah, especially because I'm so busy nowadays with studies and exams..

Sad life.

UPDATE:
I've uploaded Taylor Swift inspired sim here.

Weird Blog

I feel like my blog is really messed up. Maybe it's because I used to edit the html of the template too much, now it's just weird.

Should I just reset everything? But my hard work will be gone :( sighhh

But now it's as if nothing is working. Example, the codes are all messed up, addthis button doesn't work. Number of comments is not shown for some posts..

What should I do :(

Creating My Favourite Sim

Hello everyone!

A week or two ago I created a sim and uploaded it to the Exchange, so that I can use it as an avatar!

Pictures:

Close Up Shot

Everyday

Formerwear

Sleepwear

Athletic

Swimwear

CLICK HERE THANKS

Disgusting Dominos

Oh God, I don't know why I'm always experiencing bad service. I'm not asking much, am I? I'm just asking for the company to do what they promised.

WHY OH WHY MUST DOMINOS BE SO INEFFICIENT???

So this is what happened. I ordered at 6:13pm. Then on the website it says that they are busy, so they can only start preparing the pizza etc an hour later. Ok, fine, I understand..

So I waited.

And waited.

And waited.

It's 9:13pm. Still no pizza.

Do I have the right to be mad? I believe so.

Bonus Points Worldwide Now!!

Omg I'm so excited! I logged into the Sims 3 website and visited the store and I realised that they give out bonus points to non-Americans!

Sims 3 (Did not get my bonus simpoints)

I have decided that every time I encounter a problem with EA/Origin/anything related to Sims, and finally found a solution to it, I will post it on my blog so that I can help others too.

I should probably create a new blog that's call the Sims or something but I'm too lazy! Hehehe.

So, anyway, I had a problem trying to get the bonus simpoints that you're supposed to get if you buy the base game and/or World Adventures - 1000 simpoints EACH.

And I never knew about it. Sigh... My cousin gifted me with the Sims 3 base game and I had registered it with Origin. And World Adventures was bought via Origin. I didn't get the chance to register it on the Sims 3 Store, so I couldn't get the 1000 simpoints. The button to redeem the points was not there.

Soooo... If you bought the Sims 3 base game and/or World Adventures via Origin, or redeemed the game via Origin, read on.

Gone for too long

Today, I finally went back to checking the stuff I usually checked. Eg, the blogs I usually check, the facebook pages and the youtube accounts.

All of a sudden I realized that I have been so busy with school life that I forgot to check all of those stuff. I feel like I'm really outdated.

Nightmare Service

I opened an online banking account with Maybank on tuesday. I thought everything was going well, and I went home happily with my new debit card. But then something horrible happened. I thought it was just a small issue that can be solved easily. But no! It took two days and many calls to solve this issue. Guess what happened?

They didn't record my mobile number down.

And because of this, I wasn't able to access my online banking! I could activate it but I can't access it because I don't have the security token, neither was I able to receive the SMS OTP. Then I called their customer service to ask them to record my mobile number down and use SMS as my 2FA.

Tuesday
First call: I don't know her name. But it was a female who picked up. Not super helpful, but still alright. Acceptable service. She helped me request for a security token and did not help me set SMS as my 2FA. Confused me a lot.

Second call: Very good service. Her name's May, I believe. It might not be spelled that way, but it's pronounced that way. She helped me by leading me to the eServices form, and told me what to do.

So I filled up the eServices form, and I put it in an envelope, and everything. I was about to leave the house to send it out when my mother received a call from the person that helped us open the account. Nicole. She asked us to go down to the branch to settle everything.

Wednesday
So we did, on wednesday. We went there, gave out mobile number, asked her to set my mode of 2FA as SMS, and we left, thinking everything was done.

I went home, I tried to login, but I can't. It gave me the message:

Dear Customer You have not activated your New Security Token. Please click here to activate it now.

Click here to know more about the New Security Token.

So I thought, maybe she have not sent my form in yet, maybe I need to wait 1 more day.

Thursday

So on thursday, my mother asked me about my online banking and told me to try signing in. And I did. It gave me the same message again. So I called their customer service line.

Third call: Horrible! Her name is Vicky/Vivi (something like that). She wasn't very clear. She talked really fast, didn't listen to me and just went on and on. She didn't even bother listening to my full story and just assumed what I wanted. So I never got a chance to explain myself. I told her I wanted to use SMS as my 2FA, know what she told me? She said that I've already activated my account, so the SMS OTP is of no use to me. Like what? You mean I don't have to sign in anymore? She said I can only use the security token to sign in, not SMS. The SMS OTP is only used to help me activate my account.

After the call ended, I went online to search, to understand more about this SMS OTP and whether Maybank's one works the same way as DBS/POSB's. And it does! This is what it says on the website:

1. If I have selected SMS as my mode of 2FA, when can I start using it?

   Upon registration, you will receive an SMS sent to your registered mobile phone number as a confirmation. Thereafter, you may login to Maybank2u.com.sg any time and the One-Time Password (OTP) will be sent via SMS automatically for login.
   For sensitive online transactions like 3^rd party Funds Transfer, the OTP will be sent via SMS upon request.
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2. How does the 2FA SMS work?

   Every time you login to Maybank2u.com.sg as well as when you perform certain sensitive online transactions, you will receive an OTP sent via SMS to your registered mobile phone number automatically or as requested.
   The login process for 2FA SMS users is as follows:
   • Enter your Username and Password
   • You will be prompted to enter an OTP to complete the login process. Simply wait for the OTP to be sent via SMS to your registered mobile phone number. Once you receive it, enter the OTP and click "Confirm" to proceed.
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So, doesn't that mean that I need the SMS 2FA to login EVERYTIME? I really don't understand why that lady on the line said that to me.

So I called again.

Fourth call: His name is Dillion/Dylan (don't know how to spell, but pronounced that way). He was really nice. He listened to me explain the whole story, and told me that he can help me reset my account, so that I can just use 'First Time Login' all over again. He explained the whole process to me, gave me correct instructions. He told me that I just need to login 30 minutes later and it should be fine.

BUT IT WASN'T!!!!!

I don't really think it was his fault, I think he just forgot to set my mode of 2FA as SMS? Because when he was explaining the process to me, he did mention that I was supposed to receive the 8 digit code to login via SMS. But I didn't.

So I called again.

Fifth call: This lady's name is Jonalyn. (definitely spelled this way, because my mother asked her for the spelling) She was really nice. When I called in, I asked for Dillion/Dylan. But he was out for lunch. So this poor lady had to help to fix the problem that the previous staff caused. She was really nice, she listened to my whole story and told me that she would call Choa Chu Kang Branch to ask if they have already sent in the form to set my mode of 2FA as SMS etc etc. And that she would call me back as soon as possible once she found out what is going on. And she did call me back around dinner time.

My father was around when I picked up her call and he asked me turn on loud speaker. He heard the whole conversation and told Jonalyn to get everything done by Monday so that I can use online banking as soon as possible.

I don't know if it will be solved soon. I hope so, otherwise I might just cancel the account because honestly? The interest rate isn't as attractive as it was anymore, now that I've been exposed to their nightmare service. 

Sigh. I never knew opening an online banking account can be so difficult. It wasn't that difficult with POSB, I just applied for online banking by filling up the form online and just sent it in (it was an eform, I didn't even have to print it out or send it via post). Then the token was delivered within 2-3 days.

Why can't Maybank provide that kind of service too? There's a chinese saying, 一分钱，一分货. I guess it is true. If I want them to give me a higher interest, I have to accept their horrible nightmare service. If I want good service, I need to compromise by accepting lower interest rates.

I think I prefer good service, because that would mean that everything would be more efficient. Who knows, it might take 10,000 years just to transfer $5 to another account using my Maybank account.

I know, I know, I am exaggerating. I just want to show how ridiculous everything is. Anyway, I will update when the issue is solved or if I decided to close my account.

P.S. I refuse to pay the penalty fee if I want to close my account. They have no right to ask for a penalty fee if they can't even provide good basic service. Hmph.

Update:
The lady, Jonalyn, has helped me settle this issue.. Thank God! I received the token that was sent to me via registered mail today (27 June) and also received an SMS from Maybank telling me that I am now able to login to the online banking using SMS. Yeah! I have also tried login in and it works!

:D

Bell Pepper, Tomato and Cucumber Plants & Garden updates!

My side of the garden

Hello! I'm back here with an update on my garden! As you can see from the picture above, that's my side of the garden at my dad's office..

I went to my dad's office today to plant two different types of cucumbers and two types of bell peppers - yellow and red/green.. I also moved the tomatoes into the white tray.. It fit about 16 seedlings.. Hopefully I don't have to shift them anymore. But I read up some where that I'm supposed to leave at least 1.5ft between each one, oops!

The tomato seedlings in a tray.

Tomato Seedlings

I even moved one of the seedlings over to this beautiful pot that I bought from daiso.. It's cheap, but it has a very clean and modern look.. As you can see in the picture below, I added some compost..

Solo tomato seedling with compost around it

I planted some bell peppers in some recycled bottles and  containers..

Bell Peppers Day 1!

I told my dad to help me label while I was gardening cause his hands are clean.. I told him, "Label the bell peppers one as BP". And I only realised afterwards that he misheard me.. Haha look what he wrote!

Here are the other cucumbers that I planted...

Cucumber (short)

Long Cucumber

Remember that cucumber plant from weeks ago? We moved it to a bigger pot and it has been growing really well! I'm really excited.. Although I'm really sad cause I just found out that cucumbers are pollinated by bees and I really hate bees...

Cucumber Plant

It's really interesting how the leaves have different shapes.. And the crumpled leave actually developed before the butterfly-like leave, but it didn't open.. Weird..

My roses bloomed too! Look:

Sorry I was too lazy to crop/edit any of the photos :(

That's all for today!

Anddddd... I updated my nail tumblr a few days ago and tried to take some pictures with my DSLR.. I don't know why I never thought of this earlier, but anyway, the pictures look awesome! Although I had a hard time trying to balance the camera with one hand and posing with the nail polish bottle with my other hand.. HAHAHAH I had so much fun adjusting the settings..

Ok bye!